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‘Sign’….

Greeting people is one of the wonderful way to start FRIENDSHIP. I just stop greeting people whenever i see him or her. I need to stop with this non-sense. Satan is on my back to block good things out of me. You sneaky bastard! I’m going to cross over you starting today, so you won’t get to defend my glory road.

Now, I know how it feels to be upset. But I’m NOT giving up my dream!

Have you ever got upset because you didn’t get anything from what you expected?

Well, I did. Today I was very curious and concerned about this Program that was announced by my US-History teacher. The program was called American Legion Jersey Boys State. This program was formally offered by the NJ state. And what i heard from my counselor was that only five people from each city gets selected (in ex: five ppl from oradell and five ppl from River Edge), then gets an personal interview individually. After that, only 2 people get in to the Program. But this year, this generous man that was in charge of this program, told me and other delegates that “we are just sending all four of you same as last year” Last year? you mean you just send people whoever applied to this program? no interview? that’s cool..

However, the beginning of the end has to be today. When I was writing down my application to the Jersey Boys state program, the application said are you U.S.citizen?. And then I’m like….damn. At that moment all the excitement I had, and all the joyfulness in my heart was gone. bombed! For the first time in my life, i never felt upset about this. I comprehend that this program was offered by the State, and it is only for U.S.citizens,but come on..

For the first time of my life, i never knew how upsetting this could be. It’s not like i didn’t want to go. I really want to take this chance. Since I was in,i had to tell all of my teachers that i may have to take Final exams earlier than the other classmates. Even though there are certain things that you couldn’t get because of your personal reasons, don’t be down by it. I bet God will help me and provide me so many chances in time by time. Of course, he’ll always help y’all to because he loves you and he is good. yes! he’s good at everything!

So let’s not give up. Don’t give it up. Because at the end of your journey, conflict, or whatever you guys call your own troubles, at the end you’ll shine like you’re the star in God’s image. Who gives a sh*t about what this and how this world looks at you. Right? You’re the sh*t if you’re God’s children. So y’all keep your dreams tight! and continue your journey. 

I miss the old days. I really do..

I REMEMBER…

-when i hung out with lots of people before i came to NJ

-Avery, PJae, Julie, and more loving people.

-the first day that i visited Hanaim Church. It was the day before C light zone conference. oh yeah! Gene’s mom was taking care of the kids. I met all of the kids that are still in YG today. I got mad at Elliot and Thomas for not playing basketball property.(i guess i wanted to play a real game that day haha.) 

-the day when David Simba Lee came over my 1st house in NY, then we went somewhere to hangout.

-those days when me and my family had to wake up early every Sundays to get read for the church van ride. Sundays were hell of war.

-those days when I came home late around 7:30pm which was my daily Sunday routine.

-when I gave my last goodbyes to my old friends :[

-when me and my family officially deiced to go to the Hanaim Church.

-when Gene and Min came over me and my family’s house (NY) to hangout and sleepover during the Summer break (about 2 or 3 years ago)

-when me and my family decided to move to NJ since I knew so many people there.

-when we moved to River Edge, NJ, a lot of people helped us (thank y’all for that)

-when Gene and Min lived so close to my house that I just went to there hose everyday to hangout (yeah those days were when you two were into some gay maple-story game lol)

-when I put my name on the River Dell HS student list (oh man..)

-when I had to say tough goodbyes to my good friends.

-when people graduated HS, and they gave us emotional moment to go through.

-when I had so much fun in NJ with the HYG and old friend from CONN.

**I realized and learned that even though time never stops, our memories won’t. There is no last goodbye in this world because you’ll see them in another place. Place that is much peaceful and; filled with Glory. Even though we see people taking their next step for their future, there will be more beautiful and wonderful days that YOU couldn’t think of. So live and love your life. Don’t intend to waste your life, try to make every second, every minute, every hour,and every moment count. Make it count!**

Lord I thank you for

this group beauty and group love called: family

this faithful and trustful relationship called: friendship

and many other greater things that you gave for us.

I pray now to seek more of you. More of you presences even though there will be dark days waiting me to battle. Ty and eye love U.

Making Hard decisions already.

i need to stop worrying, so i need to have some confident and hope in my mind. 

same here…

the-death-of-stars:

gaydtr:

my mood has been a euphoria/shit binary for the past 24 hours and i can’t figure out why

me all week~

Tired with this world’s education.

but can i do it? hell yeah boy!!